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I am a geek, and heaven for me is just my own room full of action figures and toys I collect. I’m not a kind of person who loves traveling as I prefer to stay at home during holidays. After hectic days of finishing every assessments for last semester, I decided to join on a trip with my students for one day. They chose Pamutusan Island which I had no idea before. I know about Sikuai Island and a little bit about Pagang Island, I didn’t know that actually Pamutusan Island is near there.
Morning 9 AM, we started our trip from Bungus Teluk Kabung using a speed boat pulling banana boat we ride. This is the first time I experience such and it turned out to be great. We arrived at Sikuai Island first to experience extreme banana boat drifting. Well I didn’t survive any of that drifting. It’s fun but so exhausting.
Then we continue to our real destination. At first they informed me earlier days before we would go to Pagang Island, but one of them said we decided to Pamutusan Island not Pagang as it’s already been commercialized and we would have more fun in Pamutusan. We have made the right decision as Pamutusan Island is better than Pagang. We went hiking and snorkeling there.
(another Pamutusan Island beach behind)
The view here is very very beautiful. Everything is still fresh, quite, calm, and peaceful. This is the feeling I want when having such trip.
(View from the top)
In short, I am so happy to join this trip. This is a nice experience to have. For those who wants to go to West Sumatra, this is a must place to visit.
*see more pictures from my Facebook album
A new superhero revealed recently to be aired June 2013 entitled BIMA Satria Garuda or BIMA the Garuda Warrior. This series is made by MNC Group together with Ishimori Pro, well-known for Kamen Rider, for 26 episodes with merchandises courtesy of Bandai.
Now this is a serious project, very promising, and a good sign for the development of Indonesian Superhero industries. And I have to be honest that I am so excited about this news. Although not the first Indonesian “live-action” (read: tokusatsu) technically, but overall receptions that I can sum are pretty well.
Their marketing strategies are in good track. Merchandises by Bandai and Stella from JKT48 are effective magnet to attract wide audiences. Judging from the design of BIMA itself, I must admit that it’s very cool. A mix of Ryuki, OOO Tajadol, Faiz & Kaixa, heavy influence of Kamen Rider from head to toe. Not using a belt as transforming device is a good decision to differentiate it from Kamen Rider.
I am so excited, I really hope this series will be well received and can expand the franchise further. I am not skeptical at all considering the good hype and Ishimori Pro’s involvement to this series. I think MNC now realize that buying series’ license of Kamen Rider or Super Sentai to be aired in here (Indonesia) is not wise, instead they create their own production for Indonesian market. Good judgment there as the fans nowadays just download fansubbed version of them.
Let’s pray this series will be good as the hype we have today. I am also tempted to collect the toys too ^^a
BIMA The Garuda Warrior teaser
26 April 2013
Saya melihat pengumuman dari Multiply Indonesia bahwa mereka tutup per tanggal 6 Mei 2013. Dijelaskan bahwa mereka benar2 berhenti menjalankan usaha tanggal 31 Mei 2013 tanpa disertai alasan yang jelas. Saya membaca artikel di Kompas bahwa MP gagal menjadi yang terdepan dalam e-commerce.
29 April 2013
Seharusnya hari ini adalah perayaan situs MP saya yang dulu beralamat di http://airde.multiply.com yang ke-7. Saya memulai segala2nya pada tanggal 29 April 2006. Enam tahun lebih saya memiliki kehidupan kedua di MP tersebut. Bertemu dengan mereka yang sehobi, berinteraksi, berbagi informasi, dan banyak lagi. Dan semua kesenangan itu musnah ketika MP memberikan pengumuman penutupan fasilitas jejaring sosialnya dan beralih ke e-commerce pada bulan Agustus 2012 yang lalu.
Saya kesal? Iya!
Saya sudah memprediksi kalau terobosan ini akan sia2, dan cenderung justru akan menghancurkan MP sendiri. MP diminati banyak blogger (termasuk saya) karena kemudahan dan fasilitasnya yang lengkap. Itu yang dihilangkan oleh MP, jadi saya berpikir bagaimana caranya membangun basis pengguna baru sementara basis pengguna yang lama saja diperlakukan seperti ini? Basis pengguna setia justru ditelantarkan dan dianggap angin lalu saja.
Dan saya tidak melakukan apapun pada MP saya, tidak membuat cadangan atau tindakan penyelamatan lainnya.
Postingan terakhir saya adalah figureview terhadap Dino Megazord MMPR 2010 yang ironisnya lebih dulu dirilis di blog WordPress saya ini. Saya memang sudah jauh2 hari memberdayakan Edria’s Realm yang baru di WP karena ulah MP itu. Saya tidak bisa berlarut2 terjebak romantisme MP dan terus berjalan. Meskipun akibatnya terasa jelas, kawan2 di MP terpecah2 sekarang. Ada yang di Blogspot, WordPress, Posterous (bahkan yang ini juga udah mati), atau hilang dari peredaran sama sekali.
Tapi melihat isi MP saya sendiri, saya merasa sudah pantas untuk hilang. Ada banyak hal yang memalukan pernah terjadi di situ, meskipun memang lebih banyak hal2 indahnya. Tapi tidak ada yang abadi di dunia ini.
Dan sekarang saya mendapatkan fakta kalau MP gagal total dalam kancah e-commerce. Saya dari awal memang sudah sinis. Bagaimana mungkin MP yang reputasinya sebagai penyedia blog dan fitur jejaring sosial mau dan mampu menyaingi FJB Kaskus, Toko Bagus, Berniaga, Lazada, yang sudah lebih dulu populer. MP terlalu naif dengan memindahkan kantor pusat ke Jakarta sementara Indonesia masih merupakan pangsa pasar yang jelek dalam hal internet. MP memanfaatkan momentum yang keliru, apa karena penjualan dalam jaringan (online electronic commerce) tengah berkembang di Indonesia lalu bisa saja langsung jadi pemimpin pasar? Atau hanya karena jumlah penduduk Indonesia (dan Filipina) yang banyak? Pandangan sinis saya tersebut boleh dibilang terbukti terlalu cepat. MP layu sebelum berkembang.
Kesalahan terbesar MP adalah menelantarkan dan mengusir pengguna setia (seperti saya ini).
MP sudah ibarat rumah kedua bagi saya dulunya. Kalau ada apa2 di internet saya akan lari ke sana. Interaksi yang hangat, bebas menjadi diri sendiri, dan beragamnya topik yang diketengahkan membuat MP menjadi dunia virtual yang nyaman bagi pribadi2 seperti diri saya ini. Saya benar2 menjadi diri sendiri, tidak terkungkung oleh status saya yang dosen. Saya di MP sama dengan pengguna lainnya. Saya menerima dan diterima oleh mereka2 yang nimbrung di situ. Saya berteman dan bertengkar di situ. Saya berinteraksi dan bereaksi di situ.
Hancur hati saya saat membaca pengumuman dari MP bulan Agustus 2012 tersebut. Saya tidak bisa berkata dan berbuat banyak. Rumah kedua saya digusur dengan alasan yang tak masuk akal.
Sekarang boleh dibilang, saya nyaman dengan WordPress tetapi tetap saja belum mampu menyaingi interaksi MP yang menjadi andalannya. Sejujurnya, saya merasa sendiri di WP ini, karena miskin interaksi. Pun saya masih posting ini posting itu hanya karena selalu ingin menyalurkan apa yang saya bisa, menulis. Toh siapa saya ini? Bukan orang terkenal juga.
MP boleh mati, tapi saya masih jalan terus. Biarlah yang jadi kenangan tetap jadi kenangan yang indah. Saya tidak akan melupakan MP, tapi saya tidak bisa romantis. Bahwa saya masih memiliki banyak jalan di ranah virtual ini.
Transformers (TF for short) has already become one of popular cultures that I love. But I have a very long long history dealing with this franchise. I admit, TF wasn’t a significant part of my childhood at all. Back then, it was Mighty Morphin Power Rangers (before understanding the existence of Super Sentai) that amazed me most. Beside that MMPR, I mostly enjoyed Kamen Rider Black (and RX), several tokusatsu series, anime, and several cartoons that aired on my local TV stations.
I have heard the name “Transformers”, but I didn’t know what it was other than an expensive toyline. My first encounter to TF franchise was when TF Generation 2 aired on both my local and Malaysian TV stations (complete with toy commercials) in 1995-1997. At that time, I thought G2 is the continuation and G1 existed as prequel and had different story. Although I did like the commercial, but I had no intention to buy the toys because that wasn’t my ideal type of toys since I was (and still is) influenced by Super Sentai. Still, TF is considered as super robot or mecha and I am myself is a mecha-fetish. Yeah, I never own original TF toys at all.
Speaking of G2 cartoon, I watched it every Sunday at 9 AM as part of Sunday morning cartoon marathon (I missed those days) in almost every TV stations here. At that time I was introduced to Optimus Prime, Bumblebee, Rodimus Prime, Jazz, Prowl, Wheeljack and many more characters. Funny to thing back then that Rodimus Prime is Optimus’ successor and stayed somewhere else (I had no idea about TF Movie where Optimus died) while Optimus was in charge in another part of Earth. Silly childhood’s interpretation. I didn’t care about which episodes which, continuations, or anything, except watching another episode of TF and that’s about it.
Then, came Beast Wars Transformers and Beast Machines during my teenage days. I watched both series but I was too busy with my study. The only thing that I remember is Optimus Primal changed into Optimal Optimus. Several years passed and I heard live-action movie, I heard and watched TF Galaxy Force (Japanese original version of TF Cybertron), I knew there was TF Animated. Years passed but I just cared less about TF.
2011, my friends from Multiply decided to have gathering in Pondok Indah Mall and without a doubt I joined it. That was a fun experience because beside that gathering, I watched TF Dark of the Moon in 3D together with them. That was my first time watching 3D movie. After I watched it I ran into nearest toy store and bought Cyberverse DOTM Optimus Prime. Still, my interest in TF stayed the same. Cyberverse lineup did impressed me, but I still thought that TF toys were expensive for my budget.
DOTM also gave me a lot of impressions and I tried to respect the whole live-action movies, but failed. In my opinion, live action movie trilogy are nothing but explosion-vaganza. Characterizations are cheesy, lack of attentions to Transformers lifeform themselves, and overall designs are not that good compared to the past incarnations. For DOTM itself, missing Megan Fox from the story proved to be a major blow. And yes, I hate that Sam Witwicky (particularly Shia LeBouf) for every stupidities he had done.
And so, came TF Prime, a new television series in 2011. At first I cynically thought that TF Prime was Bayformers in form of TV series. I was wrong, TF is actually a good series, probably the best TF series ever made. It’s darker, serious, sarcastically humorous, and takes different approach from previous series. Not only TF Prime series that caught my attention, but the game Fall of Cybertron also hooked me to finally started collecting the toys. It was FoC Deluxe Optimus Prime that sparked my interest and shifting it from Gundam and particularly plastic model kit in general. Since then, lots and lots TF figures I bought and some of them are reviewed here.
After that, I read dozens of articles related to Transformers universes ranging from toylines (I got headache to realize about deco, redeco, repaints, etc), past movies and series, everything about Hasbro and Takara Tomy, and many more.
So, my favorite character from TF? It’s obviously the charismatic leader himself, Optimus Prime. I love this character since I watched him from G2 cartoon. Whatever Optimus Prime’s incarnations are, I just love them all. Most of my TF collections are Optimus Prime, from G1 until Beast Hunters. I guess I understand why I love this character. While my favorite characters from other pop cultures are mainly antagonist (Darth Vader, Gouki/Akuma, Evil Green Ranger, Raphael Sorel, etc), Optimus Prime is a very different case. He is in fact he is not only a role model for his integrity, passion, leadership, honor, or compassion. He is some kind of father figure to me. A figure I need to be. I understand I love this character even more today. I am not married yet but soon to, and somehow I repress my desire to be a “father” by channeling it to fictional characters, which is Optimus himself. A father figure is something that not only you idolize, but also you want yourself to be him by eliminating him (similar case to Macbeth from William Shakespeare eponymous play towards King Duncan). Maybe my love to Optimus Prime is my fear of not getting married yet. Who knows, this is just my speculative analysis though.
Enough with psychoanalysis, I appreciate TF toys not only as toys. They are pieces of art. A lineup of mechas that can be transformed into certain vehicles or animals? And also I love these toys better than Gundam because of less accessories given there. I hate hand compartment, weapons that can’t be stored, or needed stand base to be posed. But that doesn’t mean TF Toys are without problems. Several also has storage problems, poseability problems, and most of all, very very fragile. Luckily I just display all of them through my toys cabinet and that’s about it. I don’t play them much even I have problems now that not enough space left to store them all.
If there is one toy left for me to collect, that would be Masterpiece Optimus Prime. I hope I get this ridiculously expensive toy soon. Yes, this is the ultimate toy for TF fans. Maybe if finally I buy this toy, my journey in collecting TF will be completed.
That’s my story of me and Transformers, thank you for reading it.
2012 was a great year for me, but not without problems.
On personal life, I finally have a girlfriend. Cheesy, but for a geek like me, it is still quite an achievement after ranting so loud regarding whom my future with. Academic matters also run smoothly and I really want to continue my study into doctoral degree. That will be my biggest challenge this year.
Last year also marked with a lot of changes in several aspects. It was unfortunate that I had to buy two laptops because the first one fell down when I was about to pray in a mosque. The motherboard was damaged and I had to buy a new one. Luckily it is still the same laptop. For those wondering, I am currently using Asus EEE PC 1215B. Another broken stuff and this time was my cell phone. Rest in peace for my Nokia 5530 during the mid-year for unknown cause. Fortunately I got myself Sony Xperia Miro as my girlfriend suggested me, although I had to wait almost six month to finally be able to afford one new cell phone.
From Acer to Asus, from Nokia to Sony. I never thought I finally change the brands I pick, well it can’t be helped.
Next regarding my hobby, figure collection. My interest drastically shifted from Gundam (particularly plastic model kit) into Transformers. Again, I don’t know why but at least I finally found several figures I like most. There’s one final wishlist left which is Masterpiece Optimus Prime. Too bad, it’s pretty expensive.
For 2013, as I mentioned above, I really want to continue my study to doctoral degree. That will be my biggest challenge of the year besides planning to have a serious future with my wife. I am 28 years old now and it’s not a weird thing for me to discuss about marriage. But that will need a lot of preparations. I just let it flow hoping without troubles ahead.
I am sorry to write blog rarely now. Transformers figures are very tempting, and my focus drift me more to figureview than other writing activities. Maybe, considering my WordPress is lack of varieties in content. And I really hope I can improve myself in photography. I do admit that my skill is far from perfection. I hope everything will be better and better as the time runs.
Every time people asked me whether I am collecting toys or not, I just don’t know how to answer that. Even until today.
Well, I can defend myself by saying I am collecting action figures, plastic models, miniatures, replicas. But in the end, people will just call it toys. In the past when I was a kid, toys were just merely things to be played and that’s about it. Now things have changed and I see a different perspective on it. There are two things, it is a good hobby in my spare time. The other, I am just a victim of commodity fetishism in this late-capitalism era. Or am I?
One of my friends once argued that if a toy cannot be played and only just to be displayed, that is not a toy at all. He may be right at one point, but I don’t think I can accept that kind of mindset, not now.
I re-checked all of my collections on my precious display cabinets. I tried to categorize the toys based on their age segments. Let me try:
This is definitely for kids, but its rarity outside of Japan makes it ‘a collector item’. To make it ironic, I never see any kids playing with minipla. I was late to start collecting minipla, but not as late as gunpla. Luckily the prices are still reasonable (some minipla’s prices went nuts when they reached ‘rare’ status). So I need to buy it near its release date or I will experience hell in finding it.
Although miniplas are for kids, but assembling the models are complicated, I would say miniplas are suitable for ages 10+ due to their complexities.
Currently the largest and the most collections I have. This one is not for kids, unless it is in SD or cheap grade (Entry Grade, First Grade). I can say this one is suitable for ages 15+ (maybe even more for Perfect Grade). Gunplas are good for photography or just for display in cabinets. An army of gunplas attracts people, seriously. Gunplas are easily available especially for popular releases. Some limited, not popular design, or strange looking gunplas are difficult to find and way too expensive. Even when I said SD above is for kids, the assembling is difficult for first-timer. If we want more pain, just buy bootlegged version and enjoy it.
There are so many things to do with Gunpla. Lining, recoloring, modifying, weathering, coating, and making photograph on it makes gunpla not just a model, it is a piece of art. We can enjoy the assemble mechanism ranging for the simple one (SD, HG), to intermediate (RG, MG), and advance (PG). Gunpla is also a very good figure to make a diorama. I have seen so many customizations on it and it never stops.
3. SH Figuarts
Beat me, but this one is not for kids at all. Even when we buy it, there are some labels added that SHF is for ages 15+. It never be meant to be played by kids considering its target for adult collectors. SHF has gimmicks and parts that intended for realism, definitely not a toy, but still it is a toy. Mindblow? No, SHF is a figure to be collected.
I only collected main Kamen Riders (their main forms), even I still cannot buy Showa Riders because of supply cuts and expensive prices. Once I want to sell it all, I don’t think I can follow more than that. I still cannot buy SHF Son Goku even though I love Dragon Ball Z.
4. SIC Kiwami Tamashii
The same with SHF, I only collected main riders, and luckily I can collect their final forms and motorcycles due to their affordable prices. But there is one, SIC KT Faiz Blaster that gave me pain to buy it. So far that is the only SIC KT that is not Mint in Box when I bought it, means I bought second-handed figure. But other SIC KT up until Kuuga Mighty Form are still MIB. I collected SIC KT because I cannot afford to buy its SIC counterparts.
SIC KT, again, the same with SHF, are not intended to be collected by kids. All that I know the kids will tear the figures for good. Yes, it is not for kids at all.
Most of my bootlegged figures are for kids, notably from Candy Toys, Transformers Knock-Off and DX Sentai Mecha. But still, there are some that indeed are not for kids such as Revoltech SFO Chun-Li, Revoltech VF-1 Valkyrie, and several non-articulated figures. Still I am wondering which kids in Indonesia has the same style of figure collecting as mine?
You may notice that most of my collections (read: toys) are mechas. Yes, I love mechas whatever they are. I love Gundam, Macross, Transformers, Super Sentai, Super Robot Taisen, and many more. For me, mechas are the reflections of my weaknesses. I am not tall, yet mechas are created in realistic manner as tall as possible. Mechas designs are cool in contrast of my appearance (true story).
I am not saying that I am degrading myself here, but that is the way I analyze myself psychologically. Maybe in my consciousness I am OK with my height, but unconsciously that is a problem. People often mistaken me as students due to my appearance, and that is irritating. Maybe the love for mechas are the way I am channeling my hatred. Rather than complaining (that I am a lecturer, not a mere student from your subjective skeptical point of view), I rather not being bothered by it. Oh I forgot how Sigmund Freud already discussed that too much. And that’s the way I admit it.
Enough with psychoanalysis, maybe I am the victim of consumerism too. Sometimes I wonder, where my collections will go when I got married and have a family. This kind of hobby is not for eternity, there will be a time when I have to stop this at all. Even now I am slowly limit myself buying these stuff considering my future and more important needs outside figure collections.
This is one of many manifestations why I love popular culture. I enjoy it as much as I feel the pain from it. Now I see the strange of myself when I got the package, open the box, assemble it (if it is a model), take picture of it, and then put it on cabinet and that’s about it. How happy I am seeing my complete collection (yes, I am complete-ist, perfectionist), and how painful for me to find it when the figure is so rare that the price is already went nuts.
Still I try to defend myself whenever people complain that this hobby is such a waste. I’d rather buy figures than cigarettes, that’s the common excuse I said every time. Funny as hell, because both are money-wasting activities, still we got excitement after buying it. Passion, that is what I call it.
I was so upset whenever people judge me collecting figures as childish, meant for kids, and any stereotypical biased accuses just because they have no idea what is inside of this hobby. But dealing with such people if not for more time-wasting, it is just them who have no fun in their life. People have so many different ways in amusing themselves. And several of us amuse ourselves by collecting figures. People today are still short-simple minded, these kind of persons are still exist. I don’t see any differences between them and outdated fundamentalists.
To make it even more ironic, I never see any kids collecting toys. So far, what I have seen that they ‘love’ to destroy their toys. Toys collector, figures collector that I have met so far are already adults. This happens because of different orientations. Playing and collecting are different things. In collecting we may also playing it, but not the other way around. This is true to myself since I destroy all of my toys when I was a kid, and that is my bad as nature calls it. But now I am collecting it, as pieces of art.
Yeah yeah, commodity fetishism at its finest, I do admit it. But someday I will stop from this hobby, sooner or later.
I have talked this issue many times, whether on Multiply, or Facebook. And I often feed up with “the ignorants” with their biased judgements. Maybe figure collection is something that not all people can enjoy it. Considering this is an expensive hobby and you need a lot of money to accommodate buying this and that in the name of passions.
Blogging has been part of my life, my virtual life, since 2006. I started writing blogs on Friendster Blog Service (no longer available), then I chose Multiply because of its friendly platform. For 6 years I manage my Multiply site with various contents ranging from daily life blogs, opinions, trivial writings, reviews, music, videos, and recently a small “not so worthy” figureview.
Now I choose WordPress which ironically has been registered since last year, to be exact, November 1st 2011 (yes, the combination should be read like this: 11-1-11). At first I made this account just as backup blog for several writings that I thought would be important to be preserved. But seriously, that’s just a “time consuming” duty. Then for more than six month I just ignore it and almost forgotten that I have this account. To make it worse, I forgot the password. Isn’t that comedic genius (insert sarcasm here)?
Well, I started writing things again in here, not just re-posted articles. To make it even better, I will make it in bilingual. I will post some (if not all) in both English and Indonesian. This is important for me to sharpen my skills in English writing as long as skills in translation. I have problems regarding my English now, lack of practicing makes everything seems dull. Even my confidence regarding the usage can be put into a question. What the hell is wrong with my English nowadays? This is something when the wise word: “practice makes perfect” come into an effect.
So enjoy everything I put in here, and feel free to send comments, questions, or even criticisms.
Blogging telah menjadi bagian kehidupan dunia maya saya sejak tahun 2006. Saya mulai menulis blog melalui layanan blog Friendster (sekarang sudah tidak ada lagi), selanjutnya saya memilih Multiply karena tampilannya sangat ramah pengguna. Selama 6 tahun saya mengisi situs Multiply saya dengan berbagai hal seperti blog kehidupan pribadi, opini, hal-hal trivial, ulasan, musik, video, dan belakangan ini ulasan figur kecil-kecilan.
Sekarang saya memilih WordPress yang ironisnya sudah saya daftarkan sejak tahun lalu, tepatnya, 1 November 2011 (ya, kombinasinya dibaca: 11-1-11). Aslinya saya menciptakan akun ini sebagai blog cadangan untuk beberapa tulisan yang saya anggap layak untuk disimpan. Tapi yang benar saja, itu sangat menyita waktu. Selama enam bulan lebih saya tidak memperdulikan dan malah hampir lupa kalau saya punya akun ini. Parahnya lagi, saya sampai lupa kata kunci untuk mengakses akun ini. Benar-benar jenius (sarkasme) bukan?
Sekarang saya memulai menulis lagi di sini bukan sekedar merilis ulang tulisan-tulisan saya sebelumnya. Bagusnya saya menulis ini secara bilingual. Saya akan menulis beberapa (kalau tidak semua) tulisan dalam Bahasa Indonesia dan Bahasa Inggris. Ini penting untuk saya dalam mengasah kemampuan menulis saya dalam Bahasa Inggris sekaligus kemampuan dalam penerjemahannya. Saya sedikit bermasalah dengan Bahasa Inggris saya sekarang. semuanya terasa berantakan. Bahkan kepercayaan saya dalam menggunakan Bahasa Inggris sendiri bisa dipertanyakan. Ada apa dengan Bahasa Inggris saya belakangan ini? Pepatah “practice makes perfect” benar-benar berlaku sekali di sini.
Jadi, selamat menikmati tulisan-tulisan saya di sini, silahkan kirimkan komentar, pertanyaan, atau kritik tanpa malu-malu.
Reading American Psycho and watching its titular movie adaptation was a pain for me.
Transgressive novels give me some unpleasant experiences by just imagining everything I have read came to life. I just hate it when I realize that the narrator and Tyler Durden from Fight Club are the same person all the time the narration runs. And again, this American Psycho is no exception for me too. I just hate the ending.
The way I enjoy a literary work maybe is not as simple as other person. I started reading particular literary work by not putting myself as critical as I would, but rather I put myself as an ordinary reader (or viewer in case of watching movie). That’s just the way how I enjoy literary work, I enjoy it with full experiences before continuing it into the next critical part. Then, after enjoying it as ‘guilty pleasure’ (because literary works at first glance are meant to entertain us, the reader), I can come up with critical point of view based on my knowledge on particular approaches or theories.
Well, I’m not discussing this matter in form of serious literary criticism, but rather, I just want to talk about it bold and mild.
I read this novel when I was still in Depok, the place just outside of our beloved capital city Jakarta. In fact, my position was only about 1 km from the border gate between Jakarta-Depok. Some of you may know that I got ‘capital punishment’ for a lifestyle I hate to see, but I was so curious whether I could experience it or not. That time was so colorful and challenging, yet I regretted it somehow that I hate it (until know), but maybe I didn’t try with enough effort to understand the whole things on it.
I saw a reflection of myself in Patrick Bateman. Though I’m not yuppies (Young, Urban, Professional) like him, but I saw that I hate the life just as he is. I think he hates his lifestyle, forcing him so much to bear such unforgiving torture. He just killed a person just because of name card? What a jerk, but at least he wasn’t manipulating himself (which would be my biggest disappointment in the end of the storyline). If you hate that kind of life, just enjoy it or do something contradicted on it. What Bateman did choose? No, he is not becoming a dark knight like Batman who hates crimes in big cities (grudge from the past in that case), instead, he commits way hell disgusting, sadistic, dirty, and unpleasant things you could ever imagine in life. Well, this novel gives everything in detail, I really mean it, in detail! Yeah, Patrick Bateman was not Bruce Wayne though.
On a funny trivial note, Patrick Bateman was played by Christian Bale in eponymous adaptation, whom also happened to play Bruce Wayne in Batman Begins and The Dark Knight.
Return to this psychopathic redneck, so called Patrick Bateman. No matter I hate this b*stard, I love his characterization. He faced the glamour yet hypocrite lifestyle by adding violence as the best ingredient. Violence is needed to fight against that kind of alienation. You are alienated in metropolis, urban, glamour, blink-blink, selfish, consumptive, immoral (well, they have their own moral code though), and in Bateman case, brutalities are the solution.
He is not a kind of person who accepts everything and let it go. It is sad and ironic judging from his social position that he is in the upper-state of wealth many people tried hard to gain, the thing most people dream to have. A perfect life that he himself thought that is not perfect at all. The problem is, he never really tried to understand and critical towards his own life. He thought it was OK to be wealthy, and it was OK too to become sadistic. And he thought it was OK to be calm, and it was OK to be rough.
I don’t want to go into that detail, but somehow I felt I was in Bateman position too. I was so synical facing lifestyle most people dreamed, it tortured me a lot. But I can see through its dynamism that Bateman didn’t reach. We all know that social-economic determinations create that kind of life. I don’t know whether Bateman realizes it, but I bet he knows. He is a smart person. And somehow, though I hate it, at least I really wanted to see it and experience it myself. Well, my wish was granted a little, and that’s not enough to judge it fairly. And indeed, maybe I will never understand urban lifestyle at all.
The ending disturbed me a lot, because everything is just illusions. So, it just Bateman had schizophrenic disorder all the time? Now it is not Patrick Bateman, just Bret Easton Ellis being an a**hole all the time. All the time, we have been served by a storyline of Bateman as he is so paranoid to his life. I feel the irony came to me in the end, expected for unexpected result for this psychopath, what I got is just another symptom of psychological disorder.
Well, that is a love-hate reading. I love this novel so much and I can’t complain much about the ending since that’s the best to sum up everything happened in the storyline. And love writing this too, I feel I’m not burdening myself as lecturer here, rather as a casual reader who wants to experience it all.
(Originally published October 24, 2011 on Multiply)
November 1st, 2011
This is my personal blog on WordPress. I have my own blog on Multiply, but for this one, I just publish several things and all will be in English. Unlike my Multiply blog, this one will mostly cover topics viewed from critical thinking. But I will manage it easy to read and understand. I hope I can do it well.
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August 28, 2012
Hi everyone, this Edria Sandika on WordPress.
I technically (re)-started writing, blogging, reviewing, and sharing many stuff now on WordPress. I choose this platform over other else considering it’s friendly-user interface, and I am so familiar with all of these. Though I am still facing problems such as template,blog design, and blablabla, I hope I can manage this well.
Halo semuanya, di sini Edria Sandika hadir di WordPress.
Saya memulai kembali aktivitas menulis, blogging, tinjauan (ulasan), dan berbagai hal-hal lainnya dan sekarang semua saya lakukan melalui WordPress. Saya memilih platform ini dengan pertimbangan antar-muka nya yang ramah pengguna dan saya sangat familiar dengan semua yang ada di sini. Walaupun saya mungkin berhadapan dengan masalah seperti desainnya dan hal-hal lainnya, saya harap saya bisa mengatasinya di sini.